Every time I see the screen
I take it into me
Every line and every scene
Becomes part of what I’ll be
I do not have the wheel
I never have a choice
Once it’s seen it’s there to stay
Every action, thought, and voice
It frightens me sometimes
Alone and so confused
It’s like I am a channel
To be constantly abused
I am every character I’ve seen
I will grow into what they are
An ugly mishmash of true colors
Till I can’t tell what my own are
Every part I see
Becaomes the part I play
I was only me
Until I saw the world play
Every person that I cross
Every action I concieve
Soaks into my being
I’m like a sponge that learned to breathe
I’m not sure that I like it
For I’ve seen some ugly things
It breaks my heart to know
That they are now a part of me
Never will I remove them
No matter how I try
They are trapped inside of me
It doesn’t matter how I cry
I hide what I’ve become
I hide my secret curse
But now I let it out
Set it free in song and verse
I cannot look at monsters
Or I let the monsters in
Why must I allow myself
To learn so well to sin?
I am incapable of stopping it
Incapable of change
Everything I see
Makes my spirit rearrange
I take into me
It becomes my very self
I try to lie, to hide, to fight,
But they all stay upon my shelf
Everything I’ve ever seen
Is here trapped inside of me
Everything I’ve ever been
I stole from someone else
I know that this is true
Yet I hate it just the same
Part of me is you
Why am I forced to play this game?
Imitations, copy cat
That’s all I really am
I once was more
I once was pure
But now…
Everyone else is what I am.